El Momento Importante

Al Fatihah kepada datukku, Sayed Hashim bin Sayed Yahya, kerana pemergiaan beliau pada 31 March, 4.30 petang. Semoga roh beliau dirahmati Allah dan ditempatkan bersama-sama dengan orang yang beriman.

Sometimes, it can’t be helped that you get messages such as:
"Boycott Denmark’s product, their media has insensitively produce the picture of Prophet…."
"Please sign the petition to remove the Prophet’s picture from wikipedia, for they being insensitive…"
…and so on…

Sometimes I wonder, it is really necessary to do those things? What
is our intention on doing those things? And does the things that we do
is relevant? Does it give the expected outcome, or it just will complicating the situation?

Some might saying, "we should protect our religion, the holiness of our religion, the holiness of our Prophet"  and so on….

The factors

Actually, what are the factors that determined the holiness or the
greatness of a religion? In my opinion, it is all about the devotee.
Say, for example a pearl is a precious things. Yet, it preciousness
come from the material that made itself. The hardness, the lights that
it reflects and the rarity. Still, if you put the pearl to somewhere
other than a well decorated displayed, such as the drain, or in sewage,
it value is the same. But it is just the perception is difference.

And that is how we should do to our religion. I’m not saying that we
just do nothing to any misunderstanding, misleading propaganda. But
instead of fighting directly to those propaganda, how about if we
reflect ourself. Being a good devotee that follows the religion
principles and treat others nicely.

The history

If we read the history of the Prophet, we might have read lots of
story about how others have mistreated our Prophet, yet he just treat
those person nicely and at the end, the person is no longer have hatred
to the Prophet.

One story, is about a women who always saying bad things about the
Prophets, throwing human feces into the Prophet’s home entrance,
putting thorned - wood stick (those days the shoes are not
thorn-resistant) on the road that the Prophet will through, everyday.
In shorter word, trying to make the Prophet’s life miserable. Yet one
day she disappeared, nott doing her usual mischievous. And the Prophet
was was anxious. Knowing the women has fallen sick, he is not happy (as
we nowadays would do if our enemy having misfortune), instead he by
himself help taking care of the woman.

Other story is about a women, who carry a heavyluggage things on her
back. She is known for having to say bad things about the Prophet.
Suddenly, a man came and offer her a hand. She was grateful, yet on her
journey she kept complaining and saying bad things such as, "You know
that Muhammad? He is a liar, and he keep misguiding all of us. He
separated us, from our ancestor belief" and so on. Yet, the man just
smile and keep helping the women. At the end, the woman was very
thankful and asking the man his name. Humbly, the man replied, "I’m
Muhammad".

The nowadays

We were being selfish,
thinking fighting back using forces is the only way. We are Muslim,
knowing that cleanliness is most stressed to our religion, yet we were
the dirtiest of all nation. Also we are the one who love rude words.
Never a day pass without a curse.

The conclusion

See, good deeds and good intention never failed to change people.
Just imagined if the Prophet is living with us, will really he do those
things? The boycotting things, saying bad things back, aggressively
fight the negative remark and so on. I believe that, as our Prophet and
our Idol, he will surely just being the nicest men on the world ever,
and as we all know, action speaks louder than words. Let us being nicer
each day. Insya Allah.

Writer’s note: I’m not knowledgeable person, yet I’m learning.

Letih, penat, tekanan, ngantok, sejuk, lapar, nak diet… hahahaha…
Kadang-kadang terfikir gak, apsal aku perlu menghadapi semua ni?
Orang kate, bukan senang nak jadi senang, dan bukan susah nak jadi susah.
Orang kate gak, (jap, al Quran kate kot) Tidak diberikan seseorang manusia itu ujian melainkan ujian itu pasti mampu die hadapi.

So, adakah ini ujian untuk aku? Exam mencanak-canak beratur menunggu giliran. Aku risau, aku cuak. Tapi aku mengalami partial block. Tak tau nak buat ape dan start dari mana. Kalo start plak, sempatkah?? I wish I could see the future…

Argh!!! Melotup kapla den!! Takpe2, orang kate lagi, biar kita kalah, asalkan kekalahan itu kita dah buat sehabis baik, dah melawan sepenuh kekuatan, daripada kalah tak buat apa-apa….

Jadi…. (ade muzik latar belakang) oh tuhan! ku berserah segalanya kepada mu…….

Kenape bile kite bace surat khabar, majalah, mahupun internet, bile part kuiz atau ape-ape pertandingan, kite mesti penat bace peraturan/keterangan die yang berjela-jela?
Pertandingan bukan suatu bende yang main-main. Untuk mengadakan pertandingan, banyak perkara perlu diambil kira. Contoh macam hukumnya, peraturan dan macam-macam lagi. Sebab ape? Sebab kita nak pertandingan itu adil daripada semua aspek.
Walaupun orang kate susah nak puaskan hati semua orang, tetapi kita sekurang-kurang berjaya memuaskan hati majoriti, atau hati orang yang terlibat.
Sebab itu la, kalau ade ape-ape pertandingan, pengajur MESTI menerangkan panjang lebar mengenai peraturan dan kehendak pertandingan.
Contoh, kalau penganjur kate nk wat video MEMBACA BERITA, mestilah video yang ade rakaman berita tu mengandungi unsur ‘MEMBACA BERITA’ sebagai motif/klimaks utamanya. Takkan pertandingan MEMBACA BERITA, kite letak adegan TAK BERKAITAN contoh di bilik solek atau aksi di cafe. Manakala objektif pertandingan, MEMBACA BERITA, tak sampai 10 saat je.
Sesetengah orang mungkin tak ambil kisah mengenai pertandingan ni. Tapi masalahnya ADE yang ambil berat. Ambil MASA dan TENAGA. Sangup memalukan diri sendiri. Tapi, kalau orang dah salah faham, tak kesian ke kat pihak yang ambil serius? Penat-penat tumpukan adegan MEMBACA BERITA, tetiba ade orang lain menang buat adegan MEMBACA BERITA tak sampai 10 saat. Ape kes?
Kreativiti is unlimited. But when trying to realizing the creativity, intended or not one unconsciously must based on the theme.  When we were saying about news reading, stick to it. TIGHTLY. Baik kate awal-awal, penganjur nak wat pertandingan VIDEO MENARIK, tak tertakluk kepada membaca berita sahaja. Noktah.
Pada pendapat penulis, semua ni berpunca bila orang yang rapat kepada penganjur terlibat sekali menyertai. Sebab tu la, kalau ape-ape pertanding, keluarga yang berkerja dengan syarikat penrgajur DILARANG menyertai. Sebab ape? Sebab tak nak bende yang peserta lain tak tahu, diketahui oleh keluarga itu. Cam peserta lain ingat wajib buat BACA BERITA je, tapi keluarga penganjur tahu pertandingan tu tak semestinya ade part baca berita.
Selain itu juga, tolong, jangan assume sesuatu itu based on you thought. Based on what it always be. Pepatah melayu sendiri kate, kalau tanam padi, lalang yang tumbuh. Tak semestinya one group of people are known as pemalas, ALL OF THEM malas! Kalau biasanye pompuan je yang suka masak-masak ni, tak semestinya semua laki malas nak masak.
We all give our effort, but please appreciate our effort.
Not one perfect. Yet, we can all together give a little time to our thought. Brainstorming ideas, necessities and lots of other things. For everything that was organized by other, we can’t expect perfectness. We know they tried their best. Yet, we can expect a fair and square situation. Let us hope the next time it will better.

Tolong ye cakap dengan jelas. Nak video ucapan raya ke atau video raya yang menarik?  Penat je consetrate. Takpe la, bende dah lalu… Ayman tak kisah. =)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

“I thought that we were friends all along?”

“Well for your information, nope. And will never be.”

“But… but… How about all the nice things you have done to
me? We were classmates, and… and you always accepting me inside your group.
Heck, we were even housemate!”

(Laughing evilly) “That’s because back then you were useful
for us. But now you are just a trash. We don’t need you anymore”.

“But… but… How could you do this to me? You were abandoning
me?”

“You heard me well. Let’s go people!!”

Things could never be worst, as Michael leave Collin astray.
By the first sight, people always thought that Michael and Collin is a good
partner. Michael is a well rounded person, success in everything and come from
a well-earned family. Collin on the other hand, is just a lower middle class
who father is just a lower rank government officer.

They were both studying in oversea, in

Japan

majoring
in Electronic Engineering. Their first meeting is during preparation in a well
know government university. Among them, there is other about 100 people from
the same course. All of them were sponsored by a government agency.

Michael is just a plain, selfish person. For him, he must
get what he wants or else, other people will suffer. Collin in the other hand
is just a kind hearted fellow. Helping others is always his cup of tea. He
doesn’t care to suffer, as long other people are happy.

Yet, it is a huge mistake for Collin to make friends with
Michael, if that even call as ‘friendship’. Collin always does his best to make
sure Michael happy, or comfortable. Well, not because of any ‘weird’ feeling,
but it just like what a best friend would do.

Collin is not fully clean from blame. Due to the way he
grows, Collin doesn’t really know how to make friends. He is shy on the first encounter
and never be the conversation ‘starter’. But when he knows one well, he could
be the most talkative chatter in the world. But it not known why the fate make
him meeting Michael, as Michael saw him and greet him. That also marks the beginning
of hypocrite life of Michael towards Collin.

[to be continued]

I am very tired converting my thought trough story, yet wrong button is pushed and Friendster doesn’t have auto-saving draft feature.

"Ko rase nk buat cm mane?"
"Erm… adelah caranye…"
"Ko tau jawapannye?"
"Mungkin tau, mungkin juga tak…"
"Pelik la ko ni. Dah tau tu, pergi la umumkan. Tunjuk siapa ko…"
"Malaslah. Aku takut salah. Tapi aku confident jawapan ni betul. Aahh… biarlah. Bagi orang lain jawab dulu arr.."

Pelik. Memang pelik sekali perangai Abu. Dia menganggap dirinya biasa sahaja, tapi sebenarnya dia memiliki kebolehan yang lain. Orang selalu memandangnya sebagai… tidak biasa. Pelik kata mereka. Dia tidak bisa melakukan perkara yang stereotype. Pemikirannya berbeza sekali. Pelbagai masalah, teka teki dapat dijawabnya. Tapi malang sekali. Abu tidak memiliki keyakinan diri yang kuat.
Amin, sebagai kawan rapatnya pula sentiasa cuba menyokongnya. Mengukuhkan keyakinan diri Abu. Tapi jarang-jarang sekali berhasil.

Abu lebih suka bersikap seperti seseorg yang berada di dalam bayang-bayang.  Sekadar bergurau, dia sering berkata dia tidak mahu mencari publisiti atau capub. Baginya, ade orang lain yg lebih bagus darinya dan lebih berhak darinya dalam melakukan sesuatu.

Dahulu, sekolah mereka mengadakan pemilihan untuk ke kuiz Pemikiran Kreatif dan Kritis. Dalam kuiz itu, soalan-soalan yang diajukan bertahap utk org yang memiliki Intelligent Quotient (IQ) yang tinggi. Hadiahnya lumayan. Biasiswa dalam sebarang bidang, tajaan kerajaan jika berjaya menang  di peringkat kebangsaan. Tambahan pula, kuiz tersebut juga dipertandingkan ke peringkat kebangsaan.

Kaedah pemilihannya mudah sahaja. 100 soalan IQ dari peringkat yang paling rendah hingga ke yang paling tinggi dipamerkan. Pelajar yang berminat hanya perlu menjawab semua soalan kemudian menghantarnya. Jawapan akan diberitahu setelah tamat tempoh penyertaan.

Amin tahu bakat Abu. Kerana Abu selalu nampak ape yang orang lain tak nampak, selalu tahu ape yang orang lain tak tahu. Malahan kadang-kadang Abu juga tahu rahsia seseorg itu, dengan hanya menganalisis pakaian dan perbuataan mereka yang lain dari yg lain.

Abu jarang sekali mengambil tahu mengenai aktiviti di sekolahnya. Walaupun tinggal di asrama, dia lebih mudah mengikut sahaja apa-apa aktiviti yang berlaku sambil tenggelam di dalam khayalannya.

Sebagai pengawas, Amin rapat dengan guru-guru disekolah mereka. Bukanlah kerana Amin seorang pembodek, apatah lagi seorang yang selalu membongkar perbuatan jahat kawan-kawannya, tapi kerana Amin sendiri seorang yang berfikiran matang. Dia tidak percaya kepada hukuman zahir utk menghalang seseorg itu daripada melakukan kesalahan.

Baginya luka zahir akan sembuh, tetapi luka batin amat dalam, diingat hingga ke akhir hayat. Justeru, dia selalu berbincang dengan gurunya langkah terbaik mengurangkan masalah disiplin melalui batin, iaitu kaunseling dan nasihat, kerana ia lebih mudah meresap  dalam jiwa dan diingati sampai akhir hayat.

Umurnya masih mentah, tetapi sudah berfikiran seperti orang dewasa.

Sebagai seorang yang mementingkan rakan-rakannya, Amin telah membuat salinan soalan kuiz tersebut daripada cikgu Kalsom, guru disiplin merangkap guru matematik yang turut menjadi ahli jawatankuasa kuiz tersebut. Sekadar mahu melihat-lihat kata Amin. Tapi sebenarnya Amin berniat utk meminta Abu menjawab soalan-soalan tersebut.

"Hei, tengah watpe tu?"
"Xde paper. Tengah bagi gajah makan…"
"Ye arr tu… Mane gajahnye??"
"Dalam mimpi.."
"Bengong ar ko.."
"Dah nampak aku baring-baring buat ape tanye lagi?"
"………… Ni ha, ade soalan IQ. Kalo berani buatla"
"Ape maksud ko?"
"Xde paper, saje memain. Kalo bosan ko buat la kertas ni…"
"Ye la"

Abu hanya mengerling ke arah kertas tersebut seraya kembali melakukan aktiviti biasanya, iaitu baring-baring. Tapi sebenarnya dia sedang menyelesaikan masalah matematik menggunakan kaedahnya sendiri. Lebih mudah dan cepat daripada kaedah yang diajar gurunya iaitu Cikgu Kalsom…

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Tarikh tutup sudahpun berlalu. Abu tidak pula menyerahkan kertas tersebut kepada Amin. Tetapi Amin terkejut ketik melawat bilik Abu. Abu tiada ketika itu.
"Dah habis jawab rupenye budak ni. Bukan nk bagitau aku. Dahla tarikh tutup dah lepas. Takpelah, aku saje je memain nak bagi die ni. Kot-kot bosan…" bisik Amin.

"Ape ni? Kenapa begini?!!!"
"Kenapa cikgu? Saya ade buat silap ke?"
"Tak, tak. Perkara ni mustahil. Jarang-jarang berlaku…"
"Kenapa?"
"Semua 100 soalan dijawab dengan betul!!!"
"Haaa??? Saya tahu dia bijak, tapi tak tahu pula bijak sampai macam ni… "

Bilik cikgu Kalsom gempar! Dia tidak percaya. Tapi itulah kenyataannya.
"Awak pergi jumpa Abu. Suruh dia sertai kuiz tu. Kalau die nak, bawa die jumpe saye"
"Baik cikgu"
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"CIkgu Kalsom terkejut sbb ko berjaya jawab semua soalan tu"
"Soalan ape? Aku dh jawab byk soalan la. Tak tahu mane satu. Latihan formatif berape? Tak salah aku budak kelas kite pun dh jawab semua soalan yang dia bagi kan? Ape yang terkejutnya?"
"Bukan…"
"Dah tu?"
"Soalan yang aku letak atas meja dalam bilik ko tu…"
"Ouh? Jadi? Kenape? Aku jawab memain je… bosan…"
"Ko jawab semua soalan dengan betul. CIkgu kalsom galakkan ko sertai kuiz Pemikiran Kreatif dan Kritis. Hadiah peringkat kebangsaan lumayan. Dapat bisiswa dalam ape-ape bidang yang ko nak…"
"tapi dah tamatkan tempoh penyertaan die?"
"Mane ko tau? KO bukan tak amik tahu ke?"
"Cm mane aku tak tahu kalu group mentee aku asyik ulang bende sama je time perbincangan"
"CIkgu Kalsom kate tak mengapa. BOleh buat pemilihan lagi. Lagipun kertas jawaapan pelajar lain belum abis check lagi. So cm mane? You’re in?"
"Mungkin…. Tapi……"

bersambung………

It’s only a little bit of time for me to turn 18 years old, which is on 9th June. Recently, as I have nothing to do, so I always keep remembering the past. This part I post consist of my past since the first memory  which is 5-6 years old and till I am 12.

I just get to know that my babysitter has past away, but I can come to see her to pay my respect. What is more sadly, her husband, who is a responsible father is less sane. He keep walking to the nearest town and need people’s help to bring him down. My mother said that he can’t accept than his wife has past away. Well, there is a lot of memory between me and them. I use to eat their ice-cream-for-sale, disturbing them at night when the making pastry for sale, go to their house if my father scold me and many more. Well, there were above 50 years old already, and got many sickness such as diabetes, highblood pressure etc….

My childlife is fun, with a lot of friend from my kindergarden. And the first call I made is to one of my friend, but now I lost contact as my family and I move to other places. That was the starting points I’ve become a bit anti-social, but not 100%, only 10%++ as I don’t live in residential area. Living in the village with a busy road on front of your house, nearest house would be 50meter and many more limits your social interact. But I do make friend in my primary school.

The most happy moment is the time I got 5 A’s in my UPSR, which is my first big examination. I’ve struggle a lot before the exam as my mother is a headmistress, so it will quite a ashame if her son don’t get 5 A’s. Errmm, recently, I meet my former primary schoolmate but I’m so shy that I just wave and smile to them.

Well, that’s all for now….

I am really grateful to Allah and very thankful to all the people who help me to face the interview. The namelist are so long, and i don’t list it out just in case if a name or two accidently missing thus making trouble and create a long faces between they and me. Your cooperation is really appreciated. Muches gracias!

Ermm, me not in the mood to write blog… it seem i’m really tired today, as i lost in sg wang finding way out to lau yat plaza, n i didn’t find my favourite dvd shop. (naim keep saying, ade kat lau yat, percaya la, mengalah la). So i mengalah, tp x jumpe gak kat lau yat. i’m damn sure yg kedai tu ade kat sg wang, but i don’t have my luck. Usually by my own it hard to find but after walking around by myself, boleh terjumpe, tp lokasi cm simple tp pelik x jumpe. I still remember i bought it while zhafri went to buy prepaid. N the bus 64 very late, i took bus 65, but i need to walk in the rain in a long way. Aiya! Very tired….